I'm 27. I feel lost. I never got to finish high school, my relationship with my father is getting worse each day, my fiance left me at my lowest point in life, and I don't know what to do with my life. My motivation is slowly fading away day by day as I try to fight it by going to the gym and taking care of my body. I thought if I felt good physically I'd feel good mentally, but that's isn't the case. Every night I struggle to fall asleep. I lay there crying until eventually exhaustion gets to me. Most times I don't sleep at all. The sun will rise and I'll just force myself to get through the day. Even putting on a fake smile causes tears to build up in my eyes. I attempted suicide at 19 and survived. I thought I would never consider that route again, but as I slowly lose the will to live, the thought of it continues to plague my mind. I only had 1 friend I could talk to but he never has time to talk anymore because he found a new group of friends. I don't know what to do.