I've been biting my nails for around 8 years and I forgot when or why exactly it started tbh. I know I should quit, I have every reasons to (it hurts after taking a shower, it hurts to use my phone and even draw) but that's the thing, I don't really want to ? I feel it's the least I can do to punish myself somehow and I do it mindlessly anyway so it's hard to control. I've also got eczema in one of the worst place possible (ears) and even tho my treatment works, it keeps coming back. At some point I even given up on taking care of it and ended up with a raging pain in my ears for a week and had to sleep upward for a few days. My hair fall out, I've got horrible eyebags, lots of nightmares about death, being chased, trains, lots of blood and violence sometimes too. One time I had no skin anymore and my organs were falling out. Well, I'd love to say I'm okay and things will get better but I'm really not and it's so tiring idk. I'm exhausted and don't wanna wake up tomorrow again