I'm isolated, I have nothing and nobody. I have no friends or someone to call a lover. I haven't spoken to someone in over 6 years because I'm afraid of judgment, my hesitation stops me from forming the connection I so desire. I saw a post recently, about a couple. Just looking at them made me so unbearably jealous. I'm so immensely insecure about my body, my face, my voice, and everything relating to me. I always think, "Who would want to date me?" "Do I look good enough?" This lack of acknowledgment kills me, it makes being alone so insufferable. Having no one to talk to feels like torture, I only have myself. Sitting alone, hoping someone talks to me, a simple hello would make my day. I want something to hold onto, I want to rely on someone, I want to TALK to someone, anyone. I can't be me because I'm embarrassed of me.