I don't wanna be here anymore. I'm tired of this. I hate everything. She cant even spare a few seconds. SECONDS. TO WAKE ME UP IF I DON'T WAKE UP AND SKIP MY ALARM. Meanwhile my brother who's in 2 hours away. Gets woken up by he repeatedly calling. It takes a whole hour to wake him up btw. She's yelling at me for being expensive. I mean. Look a my brother he costs more than me. His student fees, housing, food, and his phone. Meanwhile I barely do anything and I literally do what I'm told. She cant spare a few of her time to even tutor me just a little because I hate failing. I'm genuinely tired. Tired of her. Tired of being here. Tired of being alive. Why did i wait this long to realized how fucked my family is. I tried my bes to fix it. I tried my best to help out and she's saying I cant do anything and I'm useless. I don't wanna go to school. I don't wanna be here. I don't wanna be with her. I don't want any part of her life. She once said. "I gave lif to you and I can take it back."