-part 2 am i only allowed freedom once im chained to another mans earning? wtf? that means, all my independent dreams all crack, because i have to reimagine it with a man by my side. my own mother who i assumed would support my idea of independence, doesnt? how is it that i thought my mom was really "woke" but in reality shes barely 20% there. further observations, shows her judgement for more liberal and free moving women, women who dress as they please, people who express their sexuality freely, peoples personalized grief invalidated because she refuses to fit herself into those shoes. i wouldve assumed she was empathetic and understanding. but no, she isnt..she really isnt and all those times she held me softly, it was only because i am her younger daughter. i distance myself because, things you say heavily trigger me. i was talking to my dad once asking what his retirement plans were, he had none. His plan?pay the college fees, help brother get a job, & the daughters married. wtf?