I thought breaking up would be the best option. cut to 1.5 months post breakup, thats me rn. I don't think i've ever liked anyone as much as i liked her. She was my first girlfriend, first person i was completely honest about everything to, my first kiss, my first good memory. She could genuinely just stab me and I would say sorry for ruining her top. I dont think anyone in my life even understands how crucial she is for me. Im ready to put in the efforts this time, I'm ready to manage the timezone difference man. She was the one who made me. I really thought I could get over her? I know its really soon, but i just wish i could get back with her, and just be with her like the past 2 months didn't even happen. When i moved to this country, 10k miles away from home, she was the only constant I expected to stay in my life, and I pushed her away. I really thought i'd be fine so soon huh. I know its just been 1.5 months but i just wish i had my baby back :( I just want her to be mine again