Man i miss being her bangaram :( she changed me as a person. She literally changed me. People from my school, even my parents don't even know why i changed so much, and for the better. She really made me start feeling things btw :( I was so ignorant of my feelings up until i met her. She's the reason i'm even able to talk here rn. She really helped me through everything. I slowly feel myself going back into my old self. I started being really mean to people :( I started trying my best to not meet people, to stay inside my room. I try my best to go outside, meet people, I can't even get myself to eat 1 meal a day since the past month. I tried sleeping 5 hours ago, i woke up at 2am, and i tried my best, but the only thought which came to my mind was her. I tried my best to not think about her and think about anything else, but she came to my mind. I can't even talk to anyone irl about this. My only other friend is my friends' girlfriend, mostly because she knows my ex and how wonderful