I first spoke to her on the third of april 2023. Everything just felt so right with her. I thought she was the woman i was gonna marry. Up until then I was this lonely kid, who didn't have friends, who never spoke to anyone. But she made me realize what life has to offer, and she's literally the reason for where I am right now. She really gave me a purpose to live, a purpose to succeed in life. She saved me from legit hell. I don't even know how i would survive if it wasn't for her. Man even then, i treated her so bad. I could never give her the reassurance she needed. I could never give her the security she needed. It was mostly because of how my parents were, but I couldn't even help her or even myself through that. I thought if we broke up, I won't regret it and it won't take a long time to get over her, with the fake idea that she's gonna be happier without me, but just the thought of her not being with me for the rest of my life, just that thought is eating me alive