so careless. I'm cutting everybody off again because the fact that I love them makes me wish I was dead. I don't know why. I don't want to hurt them, I know they get worried when I do this but I feel like I don't have any other options. I'll have to see them on Monday and they won't let me get away with it. They won't let me pretend I didn't ignore their messages all weekend. or maybe they will. whatever.