My mh is failing. I can't do anything anymore. I'm not who I used to be anymore. I fkn hate school for my life. I study, work hard, and try my hardest, but I'm still never gonna be the best. Whenever I'm trying to listen in class or study, and I don't understand something, ppl always tell me that everything is so EASY. I fkn look at myself and think of how I'm such a stupid piece of shit, and I that can't do fkn shit for my fkn life. So I end up js crying like a godamn fkn baby. I look in the mirror, and I'm disappointed with what I see. I'm ugly, so fkn ugly. Then when smthn good finally happens to me, I'll be so excited and forget abt all my problems. Then when something bad happens, I'll go into some sort of depression. It's a vicious cycle. Ik I sound ungrateful, and ik so many other ppl have It harder than me, so I js shut my fkn mouth.