Rant #2881

i feel so lonely in my life, and i feel ungrateful for it. it’s not that there’s not people there, they just feel so far away. I feel guilty for feeling lonely yet too anxious to make the effort to put myself out there. I feel like I attract bad people and i’m afraid of getting hurt again. My fiancé is truly the only person i have to talk to but it feels like i’m punishing him every time i vent. My shyness and guilt have held me back from so much, genuinely going to crash