I feel so sick in the head. I have an (undiagnosed) eating disorder, I skip lunch almost everyday because I just can't stand eating. I recently started skipping breakfast and halving the portions. But obviously I'm getting dizzy when I stand up, I feel cold and I'm shaky. But the reason I feel so disgusting is I'm enjoying that almost and I want it to continue. I don't understand what's wrong with me and I've always been like this, it's not a trauma response. I tried to eat normally a lot of times, and every time Im just so used to not eating, it's not even about my body anymore it's about the routine, no matter how hungry I am or how much discomfort I'm in.