I don’t know how to say this without sounding entirely ungrateful and horrible. So I’m very sorry for this. And I still love my mama. -“you haven’t hurt yourself, right?” -“are you safe?” -“I saw some blood, did you-?” I APPRECIATE that you’re looking out for me, and I appreciate that you care. But I would NOT tell you if I did. Last time I confessed to you, You told me that this wasn’t meant to be used as a threat, and then you followed with the claim that if you EVER found out I hurt myself again, you would cut your arms in front of me to “understand my experience.” Now why would you KNOW that you said that, KNOW that that’s on my conscious. And still ask me if I hurt myself? I wouldn’t tell you if I DID. I’ve been clean since August, but still, after saying shit like that, I CAN’T trust you, because you put yourself under THREAT. And if I hurt, then you hurt, I can’t be the reason you get hurt, I would want to fucking kill myself if I was the reason you hurt yourself. Im sorry