Unrestricted internet access fuuuucked me up so badly. I was 10, besides my dad on the couch with my phone (yes, 10, with a phone) and I saw the video of Ronnie McNutt. I watched porn for the first time at 9 and it's ruined me. I must've sunken months of actual time just watching these types of content. Porn ruined my hormones, my thinking, wasted my time, etc, and gore completely fucked up my regular empathy. It's addicting and I don't know why but it causes me so many nasty thoughts. Social media (looksmaxxing specifically) has ruined the way I see myself and I have tried everything from serums to cutting parts of my face to try and look better and none of it works. My friends who have never been insulted in their lives, have naturally good muscle genetics, many friends, gfs, don't get how much it hurts to hear them say all these random bullshit flaws about my face. Mom was right. It IS that damn phone.