I feel a growing hatred building up Inside me. I dont know if it makes me a monster to think this, But i genuinely dont think a human life matters, i was an extremely violent person, with extremely violent thoughts and tendencies now. I feel like i cant control it no matter how hard i try. I’ve felt this way for a long time. It just consumes me. Every single day i feel it rising and i dont know when im gonna snap. Nobody ever suspects me of being violent too, because i worked hard into making it seem that im just another “Nice girl” even though i hate everyone, and i hate everything. If im being honest with myself i genuinely want to see things and people suffer for their crimes, and i genuinely dont know how to stop and fix this feeling of Violence. It makes me feel like some sort of rabid animal.