Grateful at least one good thing went ok. Oh man my fam have been off the wall today. The nervous smart ass stress causing crabby hateful things. Call them out on it they deny what they do how they act. And btw fam you want to gaslight me and down me because i need meds to function. You don't know what it's like to be me anymore than I understand what it is to be in your shoes. You don't get what years of the same crap causing fight or fight mode can do to you. Literally nobody gets me , in my fam anyway. My drs like "you shouldn't have anything to be stressed out'. Hmm despite me loving this person for their kindness to me still maybe I should play the recorded clip of my mom yelling at my dad going". I SWEAR YOU'RE GOING TO CAUSE ME A HEART ATTACK OR A STROKE". Them being drunk. That's just the tip of the iceberg. I wish people understood me better. Like them. Not everybody just because they appear normal on the outside means they don't live a life of ginormous stress and anxiety.