I just feel like i’m meant to be alone. Even tho I have friends no matter what they do or say I feel like i’m a terrible friend. Objectively and realistically I know i’m not but I just always feel they deserve better. Recently like four weeks ago I started school with new people and allat, I have a small little group with 4 friends, 3 from my class. But two of them have known each other in ages so they’re really close and then the other one is like me that she also just was alone in the class but I feel like she gets better along with the other two even if we do talk and spend time but idk not to mention I share most of my classes with her. But it all just feels so weird, like I don’t belong and am the odd one out. That they’d be better off without me. Then there’s another girl who I have spoken to a very small amount but she usually tries to include me in stuff or idk and that just feels so weird cause I’ve been left out a lot in my life and there’s so much more I wanna say but can’t.