it hurts so bad i started doing my bad habits agian, i though i really healed from my problem but here am i doing it agian im so so weak i can't stay strong for my self, i dont have anyone to help me get over my problems, i wanna k!ll my self but i couldn't do it i dont want my Parets grifing over me or make everyone who i love sad, i want to stay by them but i couldn't sometimes they r the reason why im sad or have a problem, im so mad to my parents they can't be there for me not even when its my moving up they are absent they cant even say they r proud of me, they cant even appriciate my Succes, they always see my mistake always the mistake that i did but not the good things i did im so tired, i dont know if this is even normal i always felt alone even though i have someone by my side its like i wanna be alone and be distant but i dont want them being agaisnt me, i cried all night blaming my self for the stupid things i did, im sorry mom, dad, sis, my baby, my friends, everyone.