I am a child and my entire life I have always had a disabled mom, it was never her physical issues that got in the way it was always her mental. She screams fights cry’s and a few months ago she said yelled she was going to kill herself. I have not been the same since the first weeks after she said that I had nightmares, wake up and run to her making sure she’s alive then I had a that I WAS THE ONE WHO WILL FIND HER BODY not my dad not my older sister, me. I tried to get over it but after a bad fight with my dad and her not doing anything but just laying in bed on her iPad for days I had more nightmares about finding her body. Sometimes she dropped dead other times I just found her dead and sometimes I woke up knowing she Kill her self in my dream. The worse part is? I can’t do anything. In my dreams + real life there’s I nothing I do for her. We don’t talk don’t hang out don’t do anything. She has no life but her games.