My mom said that the amount of schoolwork i have is ridiculously small. But, I can’t get it done. I have no motivation, I constantly want to die so badly, and I need music to silence my spinning head, but that music also distracts me from my schoolwork. There’s no winning. My mom says if I just make a planner and dont procrastinate it’ll make me productive again. What she doesn’t realize is that I’ve never been okay even when i was productive. In her words, the amount of schoolwork i have (2 college classes and a homeschool one) is a ridiculously small amount. ( Im 14 btw) She said she doesn’t care about a perfect grade-she just wants me to get my schoolwork done. Shes so frustrated with me she cried in front of me. What am I supposed to do? Im sorry. Im such a disappointment Im so sorry but I really am trying can’t you see? This just makes me lose more hope that it can get better, because even my best efforts are never enough. Im going to die. Idk when or how, but I will.