Im a disappointment-my own parents said it, even when I’ve been trying my best to battle undiagnosed mental illness. I apologize too much-it’s so obvious I annoy my friends with it. I vent too much-and Im supposed to be the funny carefree friend. I want to die-but I’ve got good friends and good family and average or higher grades. What the fuck is wrong with me? I can’t breathe at the thought of seeing my parents-and I live with them. They’ll just tell me all the things I am doing wrong. And, it just makes me feel like I’m more of a disappointment and burden then I already thought. I just want a hug-not from a friend or family member. From someone who just genuinely cares and is a safe space. Please I need this Im crying and I just need this so badly please please god i don’t even believe you exist but if you do please give me someone kind and safe soon. And, if you can’t, kill me please please please I beg of you.