I hate that I don't get a chance to be heard. People just assume and hurt me for their assumptions. I start to second guess myself. Am I lying? Am I wrong? No I am not. You don't listen at all and you think a device will heal me. I have tried to kill myself and you don't know that. I cry myself to sleep majority of the time and you don't know it. I can cut myself but you said that you'd kill me for it. You said I'd be killed for it. I'd be KILLED for it. Then kill me. Fucking kill me before I kill myself. Is that what you want? I'll die a woman. I pray that I die in my sleep. I pray I die. I pray God takes me. I pray and i beg. Why won't you fucking kill me. I want to die. And for that to happen its like a murder. You're cruel. Disgusting and manipulative. You have no empathy and no reason to back stab me like that. Fuck you and I hope you hate yourself for what I am going to do. I hope you cry when I do. Just like I did every fucking night. I'm tired of this bullshit. I can't wait.