I'm never going to be comfortable and I think that is my comfort. I'm so used to all of the bad things that I find comfort in the at this point. I know people will leave and that's normal so when I catch onto it I dip bc I know it's my time to go. I think that's why I miss my old friends so much bc I felt weird and was like ok time to go with no warning but it's better that way. I don't wanna fight / ect to try to get convinced you know. But I miss my old friends a lot holy shoot, I think my friends now knows how I am and I know that's going to hurt. But I do have a crush on someone deeply and they are borderline my favorite person.