i hate how mom manipulates my friends. i hate how easily she makes them think shes such an angel. all my friends meet her, she buys them drinks, vapes, whatever. things im not allowed. they end up loving her and saying 'wow your moms so cool'. they have no idea what shes like when theres no visitors or strangers or friends in the house. shes horrible, i dont want to live with her anymore. shes evil and mentally abusive. then my friends think im crazy for hating her. one time she choked me up against the wall cause she was drunk. one time she made me act out how i was laying when my ex stepdad sexually touched me and recorded it. every time, she blames it on what i was wearing. i was wearing pj shorts with unicorns. i was 12 at the time. i am now 15. she still blames me.