is it bad i want to snap and kill all my friends/ scream at them and show them i am sick of their shit, the whole world's shit, how everyone puts expectations on me and calls me crazy when i cant live up to them in the first 13 years of my life? i want to show them, that i actually am crazy, that the little show they thought i was the puppeteer for, i was both that and a puppet, and that a pupeteer can easily take its puppet's strings and choke them with it, just like that little self aware puppet can do to itself? they'll label it as a sayo-nara, a yellow cardigan, a 007n7, a kyu kurarin, AND LAUGH. JJUST LIKE I WANTED THEM TO. I WANT THEM TO LAUGH SO HARD THEIR SMILES RIP THEIR CHEEK AND FACE SKIN, AND THEY CRY LITTLE TEARS OF BLOOD AS THEIR SIDES COLLAPSE AND SUFFOCATE FROM ALL THISLAUGHING LAUGHTER. I WAS ALWAYS THE FUNNY THERAPIST FRIEND.