I’m struggling with self harm. I always crave to relapse and everything triggers me. Something bad happens, I immediately get the urge again and remember. Every day I try to function normally but randomly my brain will just say “yea remember when you sliced your own flesh open? That was so stupid. You should do it again!!” And even sometimes I catch myself fantasizing about doing it in front of someone after getting into an argument. Obviously I’m too much of a pussy to actually do that, but it’s such a gross feeling. I can’t remember the last time I relapsed but I’ve been scratching myself so much it raises up but idk if that counts. Anyways idk I just feel so weird. I don’t think I have ptsd from my self harm cuz it’s not THAT severe but when I was attention seeker I kinda used to do it for the purpose of getting ptsd or something. Idk. I don’t really think about that anymore but idk. I hate myself