I recently got into a pretty nasty motorcycle wreck and i want to get back on a bike because i crave the speed but even getting into a fast car freaks me out. It’s not because of the speed but because i’m with my boyfriend who almost died with me in the motorcycle wreck and i’m terrified that we’ll get into another wreck and this time he won’t make it. I live in pain everyday because of the crash and i rarely sleep because my mind replays the entire crash with worse outcomes everytime i dream it. it makes me feel like im going insane and can’t do anything to change that, i want nothing more but to get back on the motorcycle and act like it doesn’t affect me but deep down i think it gave me a fear of losing everything i have and i simply don’t know how to process it all.