If I lose another partner to s*****e, I will genuinely lose my fucking MIND. I’m so terrified that no matter what I do, it will always end that way. I love my partner so much, and I always knew they weren’t doing well, I just always hoped I could help in someway. I don’t know why I thought so, I’ve already lost one. I can’t lose another or I don’t even know what I’ll do. I’m so fucking tired, and I’m so scared. I wanna trust them when they say they’ll be safe but so did Kurt and he’s fucking DEAD. And I feel so selfish because THEY’RE the one who needs support, but I genuinely feel like I’m shutting down.