They keep looking at my messages and not responding. Fuck. FUCK. They always promised that they would tell me if they got to that point but what if they don’t????????? I can’t feel that fucking AGONY again. I fucking CANT. The worst part is I wouldn’t even fucking blame them. They’ve had the least fair life for the most wonderful person I’ve ever known. It’s like no matter how well they try to do the world punches them DOEN at every opportunity. If I have their Wi-Fi probably would have ended it too- I’m just BEGGING. PLEADING. That they STAY. They’re avoidant and I know if I called them it will just make it worse. I don’t trust the authorities and I don’t trust a welfare check. If they could track to a mental hospital, they would have no way to pay for it. God, I hate this stupid FUCKINH country. I hate everyone who hurt them. I hate that I had to let myself get attached to a ticking time bomb again.