I genuinely don't understand how understanding crushes and romance is so easy for some people so I'm going to put every weird thing that has made me question my feelings about it in general and hope that someone out there relates. Ya'll ever imagine kissing your friends? just to see if you'd like it? like imagine dating them, and then you find you don't actually mind the thought at all cause you could genuinely see yourself falling in love if you wanted to, and you think it'd be kind of sweet but you still have no idea if that's just an intrusive thought or a sign. you still act normally around them tho, like nothing has changed. Had this "crush" once. pretty sure I just had intrusive thoughts of kissing him because I kept imagining it constantly and I would feel really uncomfortable thinking about it. The only people I can be completely sure I absolutely romantically love are fictional finding out what gender or genders I'm attracted to is so fucking hard man like do I even care?!?!