I feel stuck, my best friend I’ve known since 5th grade has a terrible home life as her mother broke up with her stepdad that she thought of as her real father and married another man which has a daughter he wants to move to a different continent she doesn’t have much time to leave is his daughter dies (she has cancer and has been in the hospital for a month) she’s going to leave tomorrow is not she’ll only stay for a week more she has been the only one keeping me up recently her mom is going to isolate her taking all her devices and homeschooling her I hate change I hate my life I hate feeling hopeless i basically hate everything right now, I am just 12 in a half and have been cutting my thighs till blood drips down to the floor I am also a terrible daughter no matter what I do no matter what rules I follow my dad yells at me and tells me to behave better I want to disappear the only reason I haven’t is because I don’t want my friends to cry and I just don’t want to deal with the pain