I'm so tired I'm so nervous that I can't keep food down but my stomach is so hungry I need help but no one around is able to, they add to it sometimes too, I'm so in trouble I might have to cancel all my work after working so hard to advertise and finding people go hire me Why am I tired out having to just do everyday life routines and having to mask around relatives and our nosy neighborhood why aren't I just allowed to have a hard time why do I have to always be achieving things when I've been burning out years ago it's a charade everyone is doing they pretend to care but they just want to compare you to their own achievements or their family that's the same age as you they keep pestering and asking if you have plans why haven't you done this or that when you've been trying to just wake up and get out of bed after forcing it for so long trying to take care of it when you dont care anymore for the people who still do I need help but no one around can be someone to lean on