pt 7. I can’t change that. And from then on, I realized if he doesn't like me anymore, fine. I can’t change someone's feelings for me. Sure i missed him, sure i wanted to talk to him, sure I want to kiss him already, but I can’t simply force someone to like me. If it’s meant to happen it would happen anyway. I also figured out that he thought I was ghosting him because whenever he asked me for something I would say something dry. I told him I wasn't ghosting him, I was just annoyed at him. I told him that I liked it when he came up to me and started talking to me. I used music ever since we came back to distract myself from reality. When we have independent work I ask my teachers if I could put on my headphones and just listen to my music. It really helps me because it makes me not have to be worried about what he and she is doing. Because I already know they are probably talking or close together. And whenever I look at them, mentally, that just makes me feel 10x worse.