ive never had much of a problem w staying clean when it comes to cttng myself but the other day for the first time i felt like i couldnt control it like if i didn't do it i would explode from like anger and sadness and allat and i want to do it again really bad but i cant handle another one of these problems and if i get caught for the third time my mom will ground me for 4 years instead of 2 this time but i really want to it felt so nice and i think i will anyway but i just hope i dont get caught