I'm 20, I'm in college rn, i'm soo tired dealing with my mom, i don't know what to do when she brings up about financial stuff or something that has to do with providing HER OWN CHILD, my dad was already being an asshole by cheating on her and not being a responsible dad or husband. I don't blame her at all, it's just.. Living with her feels like hell. Her beating me, yelling at me, telling me that I'm not smart, threatening me to kick me out if i don't follow her rules, her arguing about me fighting back for standing up for myself, I really want a mom who understands me and a mom who supports me for being myself, expressing myself. Mind you my mom is so fucking religious. I can't even have space in this family, if yes, I'll get called disrespectful. I really need a mom who really loves me for who i am, can I find that..? I wanna die. I'm so tired arguing with her all day, I couldn't even get a job.. And now I felt distance from everything, this world doesn't have meanings bro.