I'll never be accepted by my family for who I am and that hurts. It hurts so much, I love my family but they just don't get it. They don't want to get it. They just see their fuck ass right wing talking points and the bible. I really hate the bible. I blame it for taking everything from me. I want to get away from them already to force them to see how fucking stupid they are. They probably won't get it. I also don't have the money or resources. I share a car with my mom, I'm thousands in debt from just one year of college, I wouldn't be able to pay for college if I lived in the dorms. I'm just so sick of this. I'm sick of having to hide who I am at home. But if I said anything I don't know what would happen. All I know is that my mom said "i wouldn't disown you" that doesn't mean shit. That doesn't mean you won't throw me out of the house. That doesn't mean you wouldn't shit talk me behind my back, I know you do it about others.