Recently i started uni. I was always introverted because of many reasons, but I always dreamed of myself as someone who can be extroverted and outgoing. In the last years of highschool I was somewhat able to achieve that even partecipating in school public debates. With the start of uni I had high hopes for myself but I disappointed them all. One night, in a uni organised hangout to meet people, I went with my friend cause she also goes to the same uni. For the whole night I found it very difficult to socialise and I felt overwhelmed, while she thrived in that environment and quickly found friends. After that she added me to go with them but anytime they plan anything they mention everyones preference and ask them to come while forgetting that I am there. I tried to insert myself by joking or going along with their conversations but it always seems like I am a weight. Unfortunately a similar thing is happening with my course classmates. I really feel disappointed in myself