Honestly pissed off. It feels like no matter what I do, I always seem to do something wrong. I took a long-ass break from school, and I came back. I'm not even procrastinating; it's just so much. I take fucking forever to understand anything. I hate how slow I am. It feels like I'll either be on top of my shit but lonely, or have friends but fall behind. I sit down to work, and I don't stop having racing thoughts, but then when I stop, my mind is blank. Why do I need to fixate on everything. It literally doesn't matter. My thoughts move at 100mph. I can't think straight. On top of this, my dad irritates the shit out of me because whatever I say, he needs to fact-check me, he needs to be right, even if it means making stuff up. Then he absolutely loses his mind when I'm firm in what I believe. Calling me "crazy" that I'm "yelling." Suree buddy, have it your way. I give up.