I feel incredibly empty and disappointed. I feel like for the longest time I've had so much love to give. I just wanted to be a great friend who plans events, hangouts, caters good food, and celebrate holidays together. I just wanted to be a great friend who was always there for my friends, listening to them, comforting them, and being like family. My own family rejected me and my parents disowned me. I was looking for a found family but every time I try to have a friendship, I always either fuck it up somehow or they abandon me for somebody else. 😢 I know I'm not perfect but there's people who genuinely back stab and do horrible things to people and yet they stay friends with them. I say how I truly feel or what's bugging me and people cut me off immediately with no second chances.