Im a 22year old white male im a new and first time father my precious daughter is one year old And i just started to get my life together from years of addiction to shooting up fentanyl and meth,I was 2 years and 1 month sober…I have NO ABSOLUTELY zero friends,family who looks down on me and doesn’t help me and never has,I have all these bills piling up on me im so stressed out all the fucking time and have so much to do I’ve started putting Meth into pills capables and taking them,im losing weight that I worked so long to get and keep by being sober and I hate myself im workin my ass off come home to a void of a house since my wife leftand even with all this I still put a happy face on and make sure my daughter is feed,bathed,playtime everything because I love my daughter and I might be using drugs now but she’s %100 tooken care of but I’m struggling so bad I almost went through with driving my car straight into a brick wall to kill myself im so lonely,and im tired,and scared