tired. i don’t have any passion for anything in my life. there are things i like and things i enjoy. but long term i dont see anything with them. its like i can draw or write as much as i want, but unless i was really talented i would get nowhere with it. now im doing STEM, in a field i only partially enjoy, and at any slightest trouble i cant seem to get up and deal with my problems. i need to work hard and cant give up at the slightest confusion, yet here I am doing exactly that. i feel like no matter how much effort i put in ill get nowhere. and since i get nowhere why even try. it doesnt help that im not social at all and very weird in real life, so i dont even have the hope of achieving a livelihood through connections. unskilled and antisocial. great combo. i have family and friends, but i can never be honest about myself to them. i dont know why. but i cant. so im alone facing these struggles with no stable support system. and i dont feel too good about myself