im just a kid and ive seen nothing, yeah i know that. im too young to think im carrying anything at all, i know. but the loneliness is genuinely reaching me, and i cant stand it. i have friends, i have family. but i dont feel like any of them need me. i love them all, i give them gifts and all. but they dont seem to understand me or give me any importance. if someone asked me whos my bestfriend, i could say a name, but i know that that person could never say my name for that question. i really want connection, i really want a friend thats like, ride-or-die or whatever its called. i really want someone to think that im their first choice. but no, not second, im the last. i dont know what im lacking, i dont know what to do. im losing my voice and i feel like ill die alone. im capable. i really know that i can do many things, but it doesnt matter. no matter what i can do, they will love someone else more. im forgettable. my friends dont even save my seat if im late to school.