i miss you now even though you're the person who hurt me the most but i won't deny that i miss you. I can't say if i still love you because this is still what i feel but i don't want to fight this. I just want to get this feeling out. I want it to hurt. I want it to heal. There are things i think like what if we were still together, then we'd be happy and doing the things we want together, it hurts now because i want to be with you again, talk to you, hug you, but there's nothing i can do but just keep my distance. Maybe you don't think of me anymore which i understand but it just hurts to think that a person really can just throw it away even after everything you had. No matter how deep it was that's still what happens if it just ends. I hope ur okay rn and i still wish u the best nicholas. I was gonna write this in my journal but i'm out and about now e hehe. Take care of yourself. - Enzi.