Well, i think the guy that was my "first love" has a gf now, im not 100 percent sure. Uh so a little story he would be 17 now, im 19 but i fell for him hard when i was 12 and he was 10. I got over him late 13 and i left the school but he still pops up in my mind sometimes. I dont believe he ever felt the same i cried and i was so in love back then. I compare every crush to how i felt about him, just the feeling, i want to fall in love with a different boy even harder than i fell for him. If matthew has a gf i mean its fine he will eventually get one but it just hurts bc i fell hard you know, and i have no bf ive never had a bf yet but those who broke my heart seem to be living the life its just not fair. Like im over matthew but i have to say if he does have a gf i will feel a bit down and replay how i felt and btw im a pretty girl idk why he never wanted me. Im just devasted in life i just want a bf tbh i wanna km3 but not neccesarily over him but i just..... i want love so bad