For the last 10 years I've worked my arse off to try to have a good friend. Someone in real life that I can hang with like we are sisters. Yk, the typical girly friendship that everyone want. A stranger that becomes your sister, And honestly, I dont think its a thing that exists. Im 29, my entire grown up life I've tried so so hard to make friends. I spoken to so many people, I cant even give you a number. But to this day, none of them are in my life. Even ones I thought were true friends. I always thought that if you were kind, giving, forgiving, selfless, thoughtful, and supportive in a friendship, that you would also attract that kind of person. But thats not true. You just attract those who want to use you. Your car. Your generosity. Your time. Every friendship I have, ends with those people not engaging whatsoever in the friendship. Im the one keeping it running. The moment I see, take a step back, I stop hearing from them. Im so fucking tired of it.