my bestfriend died after she hang herself in her room last week. I cried and thought if i just visited her more would she be alive? if i try more harder to comfort her can she be still be here? Im suffering from insomania after her death, i kept dreaming of her hanging herself that i keep waking up and puking from the scene. Im tired, i feel guilty and worst is i feel so freaking numb without her. She was their for me and yet i cant do the same. Im so sorry Venny i was a bad friend im sorry i wasnt there to comfort you when you need me. This guilt is eating me so fucking much.. im planning on making a suicide note but this would be my last post in the internet too. Please forgive me Ven wait for me.
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