This old flame just keeps getting reignited in my heart. I hate it. I am happy where I am, with who I'm with and yet I feel this nagging in my chest that feels like I'm being pulled into the thought of them again. I want more intimacy from my current partner but I don't want to pry about it because we've talked about it before. They just don't want to. I respect that. I hate that I want it. Maybe that's what is causing the spark. But it still makes no fucking sense. This old spark probably doesn't even remember I exist so why the fuck does my mind not shut off. Why the fuck is my heart trying to pull me to them? Am I fucking crazy? A bad person? Do I deserve the love I so desperately crave? I doubt they'll ever read this. If you do, then just know for some reason my heart misses you. - Sam.