Man, it's... something that just doesn't make sense in my head. Not in my heart, either, really. I've never really been the type to talk about my wants. It's hard to do when for most of your life your wants were never seen or heard as real things. I've gotten better at being able to speak up about what I really want but, there are things that are still difficult. It's going to sound insane. It's gonna sound like I'm just daydreaming. It may even sound like I'm a bad person to you but, it's what's been plaguing my mind for a while now. I'm happily with someone, though there are some things I wish we did more often. More intimate things. It's been a weight on me lately. Intimacy is my language of love, I am my best when I can physically show someone how much I love them. It's hard when it feels like you can't do that because they don't want to. To end this rant, there's an old flame that keeps entering my head. It's like my heart and mind are arguing constantly. I hate it Idk what to do