I’m so tired. I genuinely don’t even know what I’m doing with my life. I’m fresh out of highschool, I have no job, I didn’t go to college, and I feel like a failure. All my friends are at college, or are just taking a gap year, while I’m not going at all. All of them have already found new friends and don’t talk to me as much, and when we call, I get talked over and ignored, or unnoticed if I go quiet. I just sat on a call with my friends for 3 hours, not saying a single word, and none of them checked on me until I texted one of them. I feel like I’m being selfish, or rude, or something, but at the same time I feel replaced and overlooked in the one place I felt seen. My friends used to be my safe space, but now, talking to them just feels like a chore I need to get done. If I don’t reach out to them they don’t even think about me. I feel like I should just leave the group at this point, but at the same time, they probably would get upset about it. I don’t know. I’m so tired.