I'm so fucking sick and tired if having to deal with your shit every single week I can't fucking handle it I'm literally two years younger and I'm already some fucking traumadump or something. I swear to fucking god I just want to be held and loved rn. Over and over again you've fucked my mental health up and shit. And your wondering why I cut myself????? Seriously??? I cant stand it. I can't be happy. I just can't. I just get guilt tripped. Every time Im happy. every FUCKING TIME. I know that's life, but I fucking hate it. I've been cursed or something istg. 'Oh? Whats that? Your happy and dating someone you genuinely love and you feel good for once!?? Heh... B-b-but why not me....??!!!! Don't you l-love me too....????!!!!' I hate it. I hate everything. Every time im happy someone has to make me feel guilty. Every time I try to vent someone has to make me feel disgusting. Can't everyone just fuck off? Yeah ok